Love Dissipating Without A Trace Chapter 15

Three years ago, she returned and started to appear in our life frequently, as Alexander’s friend.

I could feel Alexander was distracted by her from our relationship.

No matter when, a call from Camilla could make him leave me right away.

I cried, I fought and I wanted an explanation, which only pushed Alexander away from me. He seemed to get tired of me.

I had thought of breaking up with him but I didn’t want to give up so easily.

I didn’t do anything wrong and why should I compromise?

No matter how intense our fight had been, I never said ‘break up.

I was afraid Alexander would really say yes and then I had no chance to regret it.

I knew in my heart that I still loved him so I didn’t want to say goodbye.

I thought I would tolerate that forever.

What I didn’t expect was that one day, I would get tired of this relationship.

My love for him had been full but as time passed by, it spilled over the glass like milk.

Until the glass containing my love was empty.

It turned out that my love was not inexhaustible and could be run out of.

Realizing he could not stir my emotions anymore, I also realized that I didn’t love him anymore.

I had no regrets and I only felt relaxed.

I thought a lot before I made up my mind to break up with him.

Since I didn’t love him anymore, we should separate.

I used to believe we would live together until we got old. We would get married and have kids.

I have dreamed about our future life endless times.

But I might just as well stop before I would be hurt more deeply.

I am now twenty-eight, I am not young, and possibly, I might never meet a man who I would love as deeply as I love Alexander.

But so what? Life is not only about romantic relationships.

I am not old anyway. I can adjust my steps and it is not too late to start a new life.

As for my relationship with Alexander, I don’t regret it.

We had a beautiful beginning and I have experienced the feeling of being loved.

In this relationship, I loved, I devoted, and I gained a lot.

I don’t think it is a waste of my youth. Instead, I believe it makes me become a more mature and more calm woman.

I am not afraid to love and also, I am not afraid to lose.

On the second day and then the third day after we met in the hospital, Alexander didn’t come back.