“I just don’t think it’s a good idea”. He sat on the edge of our bed while I finished getting ready.
“It’s dinner and drinks with my friends”.
“I don’t think you should go”.
“Come with us”. I slipped my arms into my leather jacket. “It can be like old times”. I bent down and placed a kiss on his lips.
“I think you need more time. Your face is still swollen and I’m sure you’re still in pain”.
A sigh fell from my lips as I sat down beside him. “Yes, I’m still sore and yes I may not look my best, but I want to go out for a little while and have some fun”.
Was that a crime?
The past few days had been tough. I just wanted to let my hair down a little and have a good time. Many paragraphs are missing. Read the complete book on J o b n i b . c o m Maybe forget about it for a few hours. What better way to do that than surrounded by my girlfriends.
“Okay”. He took my hand in his and laced our fingers together. “But I’m driving you there and back”.
“Okay”. I smiled. “Thank you”.
“I just want you to be happy Leah”.
“I am happy”.
“Are you though?”.
“Yes”.
“Do I make you happy? I sometimes don’t think I’m good enough for you”.
I don’t know where all this was coming from. Our relationship wasn’t always perfect but whose was? We fought, had disagreements but at the end of the day we didn’t throw in the towel and quit on each other.
“You’re enough Jake, you’ll always be enough”.
“Ever since you met me you’ve had nothing but misery”.
“Hey”. I frowned.
“It’s true Leah. I’ve caused you nothing but pain”.
“Hey”. I whispered. “Where’s all this coming from?”.
He shrugged. “We haven’t really had the best time of it have we?”.
“We haven’t but we’re here and we’re together and that’s all that matters. It’s you and me Jake, it’ll always be you and me”.
“I hate what’s happened Leah”.
“Me too”. Leaning into him I lay my head against his arm. “It’s all I’ve thought about the past two days. As much as I want to forget I can’t”.
“We don’t have to forget Leah we just have to learn to heal”.
I nodded. I always found it strange when he opened up like this. Don’t get me wrong I loved that he did, but I guess I wasn’t used to him showing his softer side. I knew he had it he just didn’t show it very often.
“Do you want to come with us tonight?”. I asked.
“No babe you go and have fun”. He kissed the top of my head before we headed downstairs.
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I wasn’t in the mood. I thought this was what I wanted but it wasn’t. All I wanted was to go home curl up on the sofa with take out and be with Jake.
I was trying my hardest to engage but I kept spacing out.
“You good?”. Alanna asked.
We found a little cocktail bar that also served food. The plan was to have a few in here and then head to the bar that Derke owned.
“I’m fine”. I smiled.
Don’t get me wrong it was nice in here. It gave off a relaxing vibe. The music wasn’t too loud, the vibe was mellow, and the food was delicious.
“Are you not having a good time?”.
Once again it was just the two of us. Lana was still sick, and Lacey was drowning in pregnancy sickness.